luciforms:

That is one reason so many people relapse, because they hate the person they have become so they just do another bump, take another puff, or shoot again so they don’t have to face what they have become. I liked myself a lot more before I got into drugs. I feel I was more vibrant, loved my life more, and saw myself a whole lot different than I see myself now. I feel like everyone looks at me and knows exactly what I do/did. Like right off bat it’s just judgment.

before the drugs:

after the drugs:

That is one reason so many people relapse, because they hate the person they have become so they just do another bump, take another puff, or shoot again so they don’t have to face what they have become. People would say “well then get off the drug” It’s not even about that, even once you kick the habit they still dislike who they have become, that is one reason so many people relapse, because they hate they dislike themselved when they are sober so they just do another bump, take another puff, or shoot again so they don’t have to face what they now are. No matter how long your sobriety is you know that you are NOTHING like you were before you even started. No matter how long your sobriety is you know that you would feel a lot better about yourself if you could just indulge in your old pleasures, but you also know that once you wake up, and the high is gone, you will hate yourself once again. You will always be an addict.

Awe, Karissa ):

I think you are still gorgeous, I know how hard an addiction can be, but you’ll start feeling better about yourself! I hope.

We should kick it soon. I gotta car, but no gas…

you got gas money? kekeke jk.